| so, my nose is running like a faucet. and it was chillier today. and I'm sporting a new track jacket that we as RA's got that says "Faith Girl Squad - livin the dream" on the back. and I'm listening to John Legend, because get lifted comes after five score and seven years ago in my itunes, and I'm too lazy to put something more me on. sometime I wonder whether I would still pray some of the things I do if I knew how the Lord would answer them. Example: when I came back to school last semester, Andrew and I prayed that the Lord would grow our love for Him and for eachother. Aaaaaaaaaaaaand He has. Aaaaaaaaaand it's been hard (and I don't find it necessary to write details here, because it's my life and if you're someone who needs to know about it all then we'll probably end up talking sometime anyway) but so incredibly worth it . . . and continues to be hard but worth it and great at the same time. I love my life, honestly. But if you'd told me August 12th when my family and Andrew left me here what this year would hold, I would have probably run after the van as fast as I could in attempt to avoid it all. But had I done that, I would have missed out on a lot more joy than suffering, encouragement than discouragement, friendships than hardships, lessons than boredom, and laughter than tears. ha, and that sounds SO cheesy. but it's true. and it's kind of all I have to say about the past few months. I love life. I love Jesus. I love Andrew. All more than I ever have before. not that i have already obtained all this, or have already been made perfect, but i press on to tak ehold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. brothers, i do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. but one thing i do: forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, i press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus . . . only let us live up to what we have already attained. whelp, i switched to mat kearney (who is fabulous live, by the way, especially when preceding john freaking mayer, as i found out a few weeks ago in columbus), and colossians is sitting here next to me begging to be read for homework early. until next time or Jesus comes back . . . EmilyJuneBrown(Berg in 142 days) |
